The Power Of Letting Go and Learning to Say No

Today, lovely humans reading this post, I feel more empowered than I’ve ever felt; I feel lighter, breezier, happier and just all around more optimistic than I’ve been in a long time.

Why? Because today I learnt how to say no.

You may have gathered, if you’ve been reading my blog for a while, that I’m a people person. I love talking to people, learning more about them and their incredible lives.

However, my extroverted-ness has unfortunately led to me becoming a bit of a people pleaser as well. I’m the kind of person that’d rather give up something for myself if it would make someone else happier.

And all that’s well and good in small doses. Up until it gets overwhelming, and you are giving more of yourself to everyone else than what’s necessary? And then it just becomes unhealthy, because no one’s truly happy at that point are they?

Well, I learned all these golden nuggets of wisdom today and thought I’d share a bit of what I learned on my blog with all of you!

Firstly a little background information haha, just for privacy reasons I’m going to be a bit vague but try to get the general gist across.

So a while back, a couple of friends and I started working on a project which was meaningful but intense; it took a lot of effort and usually for projects like this one, you need to work with the right people who are willing to commit to that kind of intensity.

After months of trying (and failing) to pull things together, it just wasn’t seeming to work out; the strings just seemed to be coming apart. It’s not that the people I worked with are rubbish, they are all lovely humans, it’s just that they just weren’t right for me to work with.

And that’s perfectly fine. It’s okay to accept that, some people, no matter how great they may be, just aren’t great for you. Because we are all different, we think differently and just function differently overall, so things don’t always work out amidst these differences.

It took a while for me to really let that sink in, because the truth is; I didn’t want to accept the fact that the people I’d known for so long and loved, weren’t the right people for me to do this with. Sure, we could still friends, but it just wouldn’t be the same.

But there’s a point when it’s all or nothing, when you have everything at stake, when you finally realize that there’s no end goal here. We are all travelling but are we all really stopping at the same destination?

So, I made one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make and let go; months of long plans, unspoken hopes and heavy disappointments. It felt kind of like flying a kite, except mine had gotten too heavy to be worth holding on to and now, it was set free.

It’s exhilarating realizing the kind of power this gives you. It was a startling reminder that whatever choices I made, were just that: choices. And if it didn’t seem to be the right one, then I could always change that.

It reminded me that I wasn’t stuck or rooted to one spot, and honestly taught me the power of words all over again. If I didn’t like the place I was standing in, then I could always move or speak up at least.

Because letting go doesn’t mean giving up, saying no isn’t equivalent to quitting on your dreams. It’s just something that you need to do before you open the doors to more opportunities. If you’ve already thrown the key before finding the door, then there’s no purpose there; the opportunities will move on and the door will remain untouched.

So this isn’t goodbye or good riddance, it’s gracefully letting go, to embracing the new choices that unfold, as opposed to mourning the ones that simply weren’t up to par.

I’ve learned to hold myself at a standard higher than that. Most definitely not because I think that I’m superior or inferior to anyone else, but simply because I owe it them and myself, to constantly improve, to learn, grow and challenge myself far beyond the boundaries of simply going with ’yes’ because it’s the easy thing to do.

Have you dealt with any similar experiences in your life? Are you a bit of people pleaser too? Any life lessons you’ve learnt recently? Let me know in the comments!

I Tried to Code a Website in an Hour, Here’s How it went.

Hi everyone!

So, Coding has become quite a noteworthy part of my life during the past few months. For some reason it is just so satisfying to know that this great vast land of the interwebs can be challenged by a few thousand lines of code (or a few million haha)

Anyway, programming has always fascinated me and I’ve always wanted to seize the opportunity to learn more languages (Carpe that code y’know?) But I’ve never had the opportunity to fully give myself a chance to commit to a new coding language!

Well, my friends three days ago all of that changed.

I decided to take the plunge and delve deep into the organized chaos of HTML. And I must confess, (and this may sound like it’s cheating) but HTML technically isn’t a programming language? It’s a mark up language which is a bit different. But the way I reason it; it’s still code and it’s still fun, so no excuse to not go for it!

Today I milked the Internet for its full weight in free resources and challenged myself to learn the basics and more within the day. The language itself is relatively simple so it was easy to grasp,

however;

I’m very competitive, and me being me, I simply wasn’t satisfied with just knowing the basics but mastering them haha, so I challenged myself to try to build a little website in only an hour.

The rules were simple:

  • Build a functional website with at least two webpages
  • Take no longer than hour
  • Resource access is unlimited but the timer will continue regardless of research conducted (so basically I wasn’t allowed to waste time on googling ideas on how to make my site pretty haha)
  • IT CANNOT BE A DISGRACE TO THE EYES (the most important rule of them all)
  • First and foremost; comfy pajamas. Yes, I was coding in the night, there’s just a whole ‘official programmer working on top secret project late at night’ vibe that I was working towards and it only felt right to honour it. (the only thing missing was the ticking time bomb? Oh wait I had that too haha, I only had an hour. oops)
  • It felt good to be working towards something though, I started off on quite a good note, I had my basic outline of code written and was starting to kind of bridge the gap between the details and flesh out the site, when it happened.
  • What was it? You may ask? If you guessed ambition and unrealistic ideas that I must definitely couldn’t get done in under an hour then you were more definitely right. But of course, I had to give it a go anyway haha
  • Quicky backtracking here, in any other ordinary scenario I would have been absolutely delighted to execute my ideal fantasy of what a cool website would look like. However, I definitely didn’t consider my lack of skill and experience as well as the fact that this was my first time attempting to code an entire website!
  • So, I marched down imagination avenue buzzing with ideas, heedless of the warning of the ticking timer beside me. You see, I had this idea where I wanted to expand on my ideas from yesterday’s post and kind of build a little website to share resources to learn more about anti-racism and other important causes.
  • Roughly about half an hour in, I thought I’d include a few graphics to make the site look a bit more interesting and professional. What I didn’t anticipate however, was how it would look against the pake pink background of my now much beloved pride and joy.
  • Spoiler alert: it looked horrible.
  • After realizing the a disastrous hole I’d dug myself into, I changed course and started designing another webpage because at this point, I was committed to this project and by default, extremely determined to finish this challenge.
  • Surprisingly, the writing up of the code for the second webpage was so much simpler than it was programmimg it for the first time (and HTML is fairly simple so that’s saying something haha) I decided to get a lil fancy and embed a video in there too, just because the video was something that I’d heard about and I thought the concept behind it was too amazing not to share! You can actually check out that video here.
  • I was quite disappointed that I couldn’t do more with this page, it looks really boring and bland to be honest haha, but it’s still fully operational so I guess that’s what matters in the end?
  • Like I mentioned earlier, I think I could have gotten a lot more creative by incorporating more graphics and visual content here? There’s so much opportunity lying underneath those layers of code haha (it might look a bit complicated but trust me, it was beyond easy!)
  • In contrast, this page turned out a bit better than I expected! I wanted to write up a few mini blog posts and see how it would turn out as well but I think I definitely overestimated my time limit and typing speed haha (please ignore the horrible color clash of graphics though!)
  • I’m glad that I was able to incorporate links and the video into it though! It makes it look a bit more put together when it’s really not that organized (I did warn you earlier, organized chaos haha)
  • I’d say I’ve definitely learned a lot from my hour long coding frenzy though! (okay, I may have been a little more laidback than I thought I would be, there was no panic, only a lil too much planning)
  • Here’s a little list of my HTML lessons:
    • If there’s an issue, it’s probably a lot less complicated than it seems
      Alignment is SO SO important
      Having a rough outline of how you want the website to look visually in your head is really helpful when it comes to designing it!
  • All in all, I actually had a lot of fun! I’ll definitely be working on my programming skills though haha, the aesthetics definitely leave much to be desired. Maybe I can do an update post after a month or so to see how I’ve improved? Hmm
  • Going back to the rules;
  • Have I successfully managed to complete this challenge? I’d say yes!
  • My webpages may not have been the prettiest, however they were operational, I didn’t exceed my time limit and whilst it’s not exactly a Pinterest blogger’s aesthetic haven of a website, it’s not completely hideous either? I hope at least haha
  • Now that I’m done, I finally feel qualified enough to offer my own professional coding advice to all those beginners out there.

    Up until an hour ago, I was you, until I wasn’t.

    Now, time for more advice haha

    • In order to really channel those ‘top secret tech spy’ vibes, I’d recommend downloading an app designed specifically to write code on. I used Atom in this post but I’ve heard that there’s tons of really amazing ones out there! It makes the whole programming process that much easier and more aesthetic.
    • I’d also recommend taking notes when you learn your basics, like a cheat sheet of sorts, so that you can remember the most important components of the language.
    • Lastly, challenge yourself! Even the best coders need to have projects to keep their skills sharp and you and I are no exception. You don’t have to go overboard like I did haha but giving yourself projects to work towards is a really fun way to expand your coding vocabulary whilst still improving on those secret agent skills *conspiratory wink*
  • I’d definitely recommend learning HTML, or any other coding language for that matter, it’s actually a lot easier than it looks and is pretty fun too! I already know quite a bit of Python but would love to hear if you guys have any suggestions on other cool languages to learn? (or if you’ve had any fun experiences with programming too?) I’d love to know!
  • P.S: I’d love to elaborate more on the resources that I wanted to share on my ‘unofficial’ site so let me know if you want to know more about that as well in the comments!
  • What CAN WE Do? A Reading List To Learn More

    Hi everyone!

    So I was planning on doing a fun post today but my heart is heavy and somehow it just doesn’t feel right for me to let it pass without talking about it.

    While I’ve always known that racism was a war that hadn’t yet left the battlefield, I suppose I wasn’t aware of how bad the casualties were, and still are at this point in time. It’s absolutely awful that it had to take incidents like Mr. Floyd’s injustice to shock me out of my blind euphoria; out of thinking that things are okay, because clearly they are not.

    According to the history books, racism ended with slavery, almost a hundred years ago, but as the truth is being uncovered, it clearly runs far deeper than a sense of ’I don’t like the way you look’ or the colour of your skin.

    I don’t think there is a right answer as to how or why racism even exists, but what I do know is that I don’t want to stay complicit when I know I can help out, and I thought that I’d share my awareness reading list as a means of hoping that we can learn more together, from each other and from the incredible people around us.

    Regardless of whether you are able to participate in peaceful protests or donate to the organizations committed to the cause of #Blacklivesmatter, there’s always something that we can do to contribute our effort towards making this planet one that harbours more hope than hate.

    • The Shadow Of Liberty by Kenneth C. Davis
    • Stamped Racism, Anti racism, and you by Jason Reynolds, Ibram X Kendi
    • Monday’s Not Coming by Tiffany D Jackson

    • Monster by Walter Dean Myers
    • So you want to talk about race by Ijeoma Oluo

    I’ve put together a list that includes both fiction and facts just for a bit of diversity in the genres. I would love to know if you have any suggestions to add to this list and if you’ve read any of these books yourself?

    I don’t want this discussion on my blog to be just a one-time post where I simply share my reading list and stop there. Racism is something that has to be combatted everyday, and in light of that, once I’m done reading these books I want to continue the conversation and share what I’ve learnt, and hopefully then we can all benefit from each other and fight this battle in the same armor; with empathy and compassion.

    To everyone who has been a victim of racism, I’m beyond sorry that you had to go through that, It is not okay, it shouldn’t have happened because you definitely did not deserve it, you are loved and you are most definitely not alone.

    Stay strong, safe, educated and aware,

    But most importantly,

    It’s through a dream that Martin Luther King Jr managed to make such an impact, and accomplish such great actions, so let’s take a leaf out of his book and do the same!

    I’m going to do something I’ve never done before.

    Hi everyone!

    I’ve officially run out of reasons to not blog so I’m back! Everytime I stop blogging and start again it always feels like I’m doing something illegal because blogging is supposed to be consistent and fun, whereas sometimes I think I just blog whenever I feel guilty for not posting in six months.

    Consistency is something I’ve always struggled with, I love starting new projects and find it so easy to get wrapped up in the excitement of it all, that when the whirlwind dies down a bit, it’s hard to stay afloat as opposed to looking for something else to sweep me away and take me higher up the ecstasy ladder.

    In a way I think that’s why I kind of enjoy the thrill when it comes to deadlines too, because it gives me something to focus on without the risk of losing motivation, because in those cases, I have no choice.

    But my blog is something I started up as a hobby and intending to pursue it without drifting hasn’t been easy.

    In fact for the past two years, I’ve been blogging sporadically, everytime the ideas threatened to spill out, I pulled up my drafts folder and just wrote until the colours dimmed and the torrent of words eased.

    But even after all this time, writing up a blog post is still thrilling, it’s exciting to know that all the words trapped up within your mind are able to take shape and form into coherent images and stories that somehow miraculously get understood by everyone else.

    However, after the first year into blogging, as with everything else, the excitement kind of wore off for a bit and although the ideas kept coming, the desire for the words to flow, just didn’t.

    But my love for blogging (as with every other hobby in my life) remains constant and I’d love to give myself a chance to work on it without the glitter blinding me (although in almost every other instance, glitter is never a bad thing haha)

    So I’m challenging myself to run with my thoughts and do something I’ve never done before.

    I’m going to blog for a month straight.

    Anything, everything, may it be random or magical, will be going into my blog posts, it’s going to be fun, crazy and maybe just a lil bit dramatic but it’ll definitely be something I’m going to look back on and laugh. (gosh it sounds like I’m introducing you to a documentary about my life or something haha)

    I want to take the time to revel in the joy of writing again and rediscover the community that I loved so much. (okay again this may be a bit much, but I really do feel this way haha and I did say it was going to be dramatic)

    I also think, this is in a way, my way of deciding if I should say goodbye to the blogging world and acknowledge it for all it’s fabulousness or decide if it’s really something I want to re-prioritize in my life.

    So, what can you expect?

    For starters; a lot of changes, I’m going to be pushing myself to my most creative limit (I don’t know if that’s a thing but I guess I’ll find out ahh) so expect a lot of random insanity coming your way! (not screening in every cinema near you!)

    I’m planning on re-doing my blog (like I do every year), baking lots of cookies and learning things that I’ve never learnt before!

    Join me in my quest to blogging serenity and we shall embark on this adventure together (yes, I’m absolutely terrified and yes, I’m also very excited)

    Lets see how this goes, shall we?

    We Are All Heroes + A Compilation of World-Saving Ideas To Do From Home

    Hi everyone!

    All day I’ve just had this itching desire to return to my blog and type up this post, so here I am now!

    Now that the whole world is in official ‘social distancing’ and ‘self-isolation’ mode, I just thought that I’d share a bit of perspective and a couple of unique ideas on how to stay at home whilst living out your greatest dreams.

    I know, I know, it’s so tempting to curl back into bed with your pajamas and watch Netflix until 2am, and then wake up the next morning and live life vicariously through the sims on your laptop.

    Unfortunately though, there’s only so much you can watch until it feels like your brain is slowly melting into an unproductive pile of goo. However, the thought of being ‘productive’ still seems too much for your mind to take; with everything else that’s going on in the world, how can you even muster up the strength? Right?

    Well, not exactly.

    Now I don’t know about you, but ever since I can remember I’ve been fascinated by the idea of heroes, whether it’s a powerful superhero or a brave princess, the distinct qualities of self-lessness and bravery always stood out to me.

    I wanted to be exactly like them, and I don’t just mean in the sense of the whole ‘surprising superpowers!’ boost but just the feeling of accomplishing something amazing, you know?

    Nevertheless, it’s not really everyday that you come across a mysterious land in need of saving or magical powers from mystical sources. In fact, life is we used to know it was really quite mundane (or so we thought at least)

    But now, all of that has changed. And it’s like a horrible nightmarish version of a fairytale (except without the unicorns and the magic) has morphed into our everyday routines and it feels utterly surreal.

    So I suppose there’s two ways that we can look at the situation; we can either be the heroes or the weapons in the background placed for both aesthetic purposes and for playing an antagonistic role in the whole scenario.

    I’ve decided that I want to be the hero, and guess what? All of you are heroes too.

    Why? Because you are choosing to be an active part of defeating the monster, slaying the dragon, fighting against the enemy that is the virus, simply by staying home. By practicing social distancing, by doing your best to offer support to the frontline warriors who continue to conquer the battleground; the doctors, nurses and medical professionals.

    As heroes, it’s easy to feel hopeless in situations like this, because this time, unlike all the other situations we’ve been trained to deal with, we aren’t allowed to go directly ‘head to head’ with the villain. In fact, we aren’t allowed to do very much at all, except stay indoors and wash our hands.

    Every hero is driven by the desire to help, save and protect. And during times like this, we are doing just that. The only difference is that it’s just slightly more unconventional heroics, but mind you, it’s still helping to save the world and that’s what matters.

    Now it’s time to step up to the great responsibility we’ve been entrusted with; the future of the planet. Everything we care about and love is at stake and it’s up to us to decide which roles we want to continue playing and how we can contribute in a way that’s less ‘dare-devil detrimental’ and more ‘ingenious indoors’

    No hero is perfect, so whilst it’s easy to complain and get back into bed, we have duties to attend to, unusual as they may be. Hey, no one ever said that saving the world was easy.

    I came up with a little list of things that we can do to carry out our heroic duties without causing any additional chaos to the innocent civilians.

    Create Art.

    Now I know this sounds like a bit of an odd way to ‘save the planet’ but here’s my thought process on this. Art is something that brings joy to people when they need it the most, it has the power to inspire, bring awe and delight. Therefore, since a touch of happiness is exactly what the world needs right now, you have no excuse!

    Pick up your paintbrush, brush off the dust on that pottery wheel, write the novel you’ve been day-dream writing in your head. There’s no better time to contribute your genius.

    Oh, and important noteworthy tip here: No capes and no second guessing! Whatever you end up making doesn’t have to be perfect or brilliant. Your first painting isn’t going to be the next Mona Lisa and that’s completely fine! You aren’t doing it to impress the art critics, you are doing it for all of those people that you love. To make their days just a little bit more colorful, to bring back the beauty that is life itself.

    Oh oh and to add to that; get creative! And I mean that in every liberal sense possible!

    Don’t limit yourself to just one medium, if your inner artist is calling out for a stop motion cacti war, just do it! (If you want more details, I’d be happy to elaborate haha)

    Every good hero checks up regularly on her/his fellow heroes and comrades. This situation is no exception, so video call your blood kin and those around who keep your cape untangled (and by that I mean the people who keep you sane haha)

    This crisis calls for a lot of things, but most of all love and community spirit, so shovel it all out online!

    No hero is complete without the fancy gadgets or cool superpowers, or in our case our creativity and enthusiasm, (I know it’s not the same folks, but in this case we’ll just have to make do with what we’ve got!)

    Anyway, by this I mean, make do with what you have at home to stir up some crazy solutions! Rise to the challenge and dare yourself to create the best cookie combination in the world (I’m already envisioning mine!) or make the best pizza you’ve ever made!

    Or take a step further and go insane with the possibilities, you’d never know if pineapple cookies were any good unless you tried it, right? (Okay maybe that wasn’t the best suggestion haha but you get the point!)

    Anyway, this will keeps your skills (and utensils!) sharp for when you truly need them, it’s like training practice, but for food (and your future, of course)

    Just because we are stuck at home doesn’t mean we must abandon all hope. There’s still something we can do to keep our hearts full and that’s to help out!

    Whether it’s donating a couple of spare veggies to your neighbor or through official charities such as the the WHO fund, the Global Giving fund or even ones that are closer to home, it’s bound to help make a difference, no matter how small or large it may be.

    If you aren’t at home, then a massive hero salute to you, because you are carrying out the courageous tasks of being the phoenixes in this time of desperate hope. Thank you to all of you, whether you are immersed in the healthcare sector or the service sector, for all of your hard work and for continuing to sacrifice to keep the world alight.

    So there’s the little list of ideas to practice some home-based heroics! I left the best one for last; your opinion! I’d love to know what you are getting up to whilst battling out this pandemic.

    Let me know in the comments down below.

    We all may not be able to partake in the battle but we still can do our part in winning the war, stay heroic, stay safe and most importantly; wash your hands!

    Motivational Monday | A New Perspective On ‘Being Second-Best’

    Hi everyone!

    So a couple of days ago, I was feeling a bit down. I wasn’t giving anything my best effort and when I did, I always ended up being second to the best. And although I know that your effort and hard work shouldn’t be something that you compare, it still stung a bit.

    It was the realization that I would never be good enough that really affected me, I suppose. And usually, I would find it easy to brush these kinds of things off, and just carry on being fabulous, but this time, I guess I didn’t want to put up with feeling that way anymore.

    I realized that I have a choice: I can either make the conscious decision to let it affect me and get in the way of everything I do, or when it affects me, I can choose to not agonize over it and simply accept it.

    The truth is, and it took me a while to get this, (and this is something I need to constantly remind myself to let it really sink in haha), No matter what I do or don’t do, I will never measure up to the highest standards of ‘perfection’.

    Sure, I may eventually reach the highest level of accomplishment or skill level in whatever I want to do, but there’s always someone out there who can and will do whatever I do, better. Who is going to be smarter and more efficient than I will be.

    And you know what? That’s okay!

    There’s this economic concept that I learnt about recently called ‘Relative Poverty’ and essentially it means that we are all poorer than someone else on some level. So it doesn’t matter if you are a billionaire, because you’ll still be poor if you compare yourself to Bill Gates! (of course in Econ, they measure that level of poverty and compare living standards etc, but that’s unrelated to this haha)

    I think that’s really what helped me get some perspective on this whole thing. Sure, I’ll always be ‘relatively poor’ to someone else but that doesn’t mean that I’m not rich in my own right. I may be better than someone at something but the same someone may outshine me in something else. And if I didn’t have that, then I probably wouldn’t be the person I am today. And that’s what’s not okay.

    I’ve realized that ‘being the best’ isn’t my end goal anymore, it never was, because ‘the best person’ doesn’t really exist. I can guarantee with full confidence that no person in the world is exactly like me, or better than me in every single aspect. There’s no one person who’s ‘absolutely perfect’ at everything.

    My real incentive to keep working hard and being my best self isn’t in comparing my progress to someone else’s. It’s in the happiness that I’m going to get when I get better at something, not for the sake of proving myself to the world, but just for me. Because I want to.

    I’m very competitive, so I need something external to motivate myself and I thought that this was the only way to solve my problem! I’m competing against the person I’m going to be. Not my past self, my future self. Whatever I can do now, I’m going to do it to the best of my ability so that my future self can build up on that and continue the not-so vicious cycle of healthy competition!

    Regardless of whether I eventually end up being ‘the relative best’ (that’s what I’m going to call it now haha) or still remain stuck in the honorable place of second best, I think that I’m going to be really happy either way.

    I know that this won’t be the first time that I’m going to feel like I’m not good enough or don’t measure high enough on someone else’s standards. I’m probably never going to ‘pretty enough’ or ‘smart enough’ to fit into someone else’s mold, but I suppose that the gaps and empty spaces to fill aren’t a sign of ‘incompleteness’, it’s just a symbol of room that I have for growth and opportunity.

    Whilst in the midst of all of this, I realized that feeling sad is a key part of this process called life. If I didn’t feel ‘second-best’ then I may never have looked for and embraced competition and opportunities. In fact, if I felt amazing and on top of the world all the time, if I was already the ‘best’ at everything, what would be the point? Where’s the fun in remaining at the finish line when if you have multiple other races to run?

    So with all things considered, I think that’s it’s probably a good thing, just cleverly disguised to look like a bad one! Not measuring up to someone’s standards can, in my opinion, (and no studies have proven this!) actually help you stay humble, encourage you to grow and become an amazing human being!

    I hope that, if any of you have ever felt the same way I did, this post could have helped give you some perspective! (And hopefully made you feel a bit better about yourself too haha)

    Life, and the accomplishments you achieve, isn’t some massive competition against everyone else in the world, and even if it was, stay in your lane! Focus on your breathing, your speed and your exhilaration. Looking to someone else is just going to slow you down.

    I wouldn’t know, though. I’m not exactly the best athlete. (See what I did there? 😂)

    What did you think of this post? Have you ever felt ‘Second-best’ to someone else? If so, how did you deal with it? What’s the craziest competition you’ve ever taken part in? Let me know in the comments! oh and I’m sorry for the slightly excessive sports metaphors haha

    Thank you so much Elsie!

    Back In The Blogosphere | Update + What’s Next!

    Hi everyone!

    I know it’s been a while and a half since I’ve last blogged and even typing up this post feels a bit surreal! I guess blogging is like riding a bicycle, you don’t forget how to do it because it becomes like second nature to you haha.

    I didn’t post during the last couple months because I just didn’t feel motivated to blog and I suppose that just unconsciously continued?At least until it came to the point when I realized that I hadn’t blogged for a LONG time and… I missed it and wanted to come back.

    I’ve missed uploading my blog posts, making graphics, getting excited when I read new comments and just getting ideas for new posts in general! And I think all this time away really helped me realize that, which is great!

    But I can’t come back. Not officially anyway.

    (dramatic suspense)

    I have exams! No, I’m not happy about it but I just thought that an exclamation mark was vital in announcing it, what with the suspense and everything haha

    Anyway, the good news is that I think blogging is actually going to help with that!

    Here’s my thought process:

    I’m going to motivate myself to be productive and STUDY because if I know that I’m going to blog about it, then I’m going to hold myself accountable for it! (That and the fact that I’m bursting with new blog post ideas that I can’t wait to post!)

    I’ve been discovering a lot of new things recently that I absolutely CANNOT (I didn’t even use the abbreviation just to emphasize how excited I am!) wait to share with all of you so expect a ‘Sasha’s Favourites’ post soon! (AHH I’m so excited! Oh! Did I mention that I’m excited?)

    All excitement aside, I have to admit, a couple months ago, I did consider quitting blogging. (yes, it’s true.don’t look so horrified. It sounds awful and shocking now, but it was just me considering it) Eventually, I decided against it and I think the reason that I chose to go on is because of how much I love being able to have this little part of the online world to just chat about everything I love.

    Blogging has always been (and will always be!) the place where I can just rave about everything I love, share my hopes, thoughts, ideas and dreams without having to restrict myself!

    So, what’s next for ‘The Stylish Dreamer’?

    Well, I think my blogging style has changed quite a bit, and I think what I blog about will also adapt to reflect that! I want to write whilst challenging myself so expect a bit more randomness and ‘Wacky Wednesdays’

    For the most part though, most of what I blog about is going to remain the same! I still love fashion, reading, baking and being creative so I’m definitely going to continue sharing that in my blog!

    I know I’ve said ‘my blog’ loads of times in this post already, but it just feels unreal, even now, to think about it. I have my own blog, My own place to write about absolutely anything and everything. The fact that I’m able to have the opportunity to do this in itself is a blessing, and I’m so glad that I’m able to share it with all you!

    Thank you so much for reading!